Birdbrain

    Yesterday was the first installment of my Teacher’s telecourse on personal intuitive development.  I waited til the class was over, then downloaded it onto my mp3 player and listened.

    I’m taking the course partially out of curiosity, partially because one can always learn something new.  And Lord knows I don’t know everything.

    She opened by discussing the topic of intuition in general, what it is, etc.  Her ideal is to have our conscious minds and our Spirits share the running of our lives 50/50.  Most of us try to reason our way in and out of life’s situations; but, as she points out, the mind can only know what it has experienced already or has learned and believed from the experiences of others.  The Higher Self, on the other hand, can make decisions based on a far more broad knowledge base because it has direct access to all the experiences of our hundreds (or thousands) of past lives, not to mention the advice being given by our Guides.  She asserts that we are all extraordinarily intuitive, but since birth we’ve been so busy learning to operate our bodies and minds that we’ve forgotten this important part of ourselves.

   The problem we encounter most frequently is that the conscious mind (ego) has been running things 99% of the time for many of us, and is not going to give up control easily.  It serve a valuable function, keeping us from doing things impetuously…holding us in check for safety’s sake, so to speak.  So we don’t want to obliterate it…just tame it and dial it back to that 50/50 role.

    Andrea has a few exercises we’re doing this first week to teach us to sort out the mind-chatter from the higher-level information.  So last night before going to sleep I consciously  focused on the third eye for a while, figuring that would help.  Strangely, during the night I had the first dream in a long time that I woke up in the middle of the night remembering vividly – and the first one in a very long time where I woke up sobbing.

    We were supposed to do the second exercise after waking up 15 minutes earlier in the morning.  Frankly, I blew this off last night, thinking that I get up plenty early already (6:30 am) and didn’t bother to re-set the alarm.

    Well…at precisely 6:15 am, the loudest crow in the world began cawing in a tree just outside our bedroom window…which, by the way, we’d left open because of the unusual heat wave we’re having this year.  I mean, this guy was literally as loud as a car horn, he was that close to the window.  Being able to take a hint, I went and did the exercise!

    Afterward, having coffee on the deck, the hummingbird I’d been waiting for all spring but hadn’t seen yet, zoomed past my head.  I was still a bit groggy and slow on the uptake, so I didn’t see him (or her), but I heard the familiar thrumming buzz.  I know he’s here now and all is well – I don’t need to see him ’til I see him, because I know I will.

    Damn clever, these birds.  I think from now on, if anyone calls me a “birdbrain” I’ll thank them.