Before I get into the thing that drives this post, I was inspired to preface it with a sort of an explanation.
I’ve read a number of blogs. A lot of them are personal journals, but an equal number are blogs attached to professional service-provider as a means to answer questions and to impart more information about that professional’s business. Technically, my blog falls into the latter.
But in most cases, the posts are strictly informative and rather impersonal, even in the case of a personal or spiritual development professional. Since I had to make a choice here, I decided that my blog would best serve others by not only imparting my views and information, but also relating who I am and what my life is like on a personal level. This may strike some as counterproductive and unprofessional, and a turn-off…but let’s face it: when someone gives you permission to enter the record that contains all the information about them from the beginning of their soul’s existence, that’s pretty darn personal. And as my teacher puts it, would you want to be healed by a doctor who has no idea what it’s like to be sick?
I’m a Blueprint Deliverer soul. We all have a job here – mine is and always has been to expose myself (so to speak) to show others as exactly as possible what it’s like to be me, and remind people that we are all alike under the skin. Even before I could put a name to it, I’ve pretty much been an open book, for better or worse. In person, I know when to keep my mouth shut; but put me in front of a keyboard and my insides flow freely.
In times past, I had a sort of a “screw ’em if they don’t like it” attitude about this. I still have that – but in a much more gentle framework. If you think that you and I are so much different that it’s impossible to relate, that’s cool. I’ll still be here, being me…and by the way, being you.
So, having gotten that out of the way…another bit about change. I’ll write a lot about that, because it’s pretty obvious that life is change. As Bob Dylan put it: if you’re not busy being born, you’re busy dying.
At various points in my life, change has come rapidly and uncomfortably. Many times I did this consciously – things would build up until I would wake one morning and say to myself, “OK, that’s it – time for a change.” And so it went, for better or for worse.
One thing I noticed in those times of a Great Shift was that a certain amount of tearing-down was necessary in order to rebuild. You can’t remodel a house, or even add a room, without a certain amount of demolition. Yeah, it can be painful, but it’s necessary.
Referring back to the gut-spilling thing: don’t think for a minute that because I’m working in the spiritual counseling field that I’m a finished product myself. If I were, you wouldn’t be reading this – I’d be off in the ether somewhere blissfully waiting for you to catch up so we could play our harps at the feet of the Creator. Nope – I’m still evolving just like you are.
Last night I had one of those kinds of dreams. A group of several people, beings…whatever, were dismantling me bone by bone. I was a flesh-naked skeleton, and they would take off a forearm, or a legbone, and carefully lay it aside. Nothing violent about it – very methodical. It didn’t really scare me at all – I was a little perturbed that it was taking so long, actually. I had the strong feeling that it was for my own good and that something better would emerge from it.
At the end of the dream just before I woke up, the job was finished, with my skull being placed into a large glass jar. I asked someone to please give me a cigarette because I was getting bored just being a disembodied skull, but became frustrated again when I realized I had no way to inhale, LOL. So I just let the smoke circulate inside my empty head and took what comfort I could from that. I do intend to quit smoking one of these days, by the way…pretty clear my Higher Self knows smoking’s an empty-headed thing to do. 🙂
Once I awoke and thought about it, the meaning was obvious. I’ve been having brief bouts of negativity around issues like confidence and patience, and this dream was a way of teaching me about patience, and the fact that I’m still in the process of demolition and rebuilding. Pretty cool, once I figured it out.
I suggest you do the same – evaluate what it might be that you need to let go of or demolish in order to rebuild, if indeed rebuilding is what you want. I just hope you don’t end up with your skull in a jar…it was rather disconcerting for me. 🙂
Hi Stevie.
Actually, for 30 years I remembered very few dreams. It was extremely rare, except in a few notable cases where there were very powerful emotions involved and/or I woke up in the middle of the action. Since I’ve stopped one particular bad habit of mine, they have flowed more freely.
And still, I don’t remember more than one or two a week at best, and often just snippets, as you say. I honestly haven’t done any work around how to remember them or even interpret them. I trust that I’ll get what I need when I need it, and that if there’s any message it’ll come to me.
As part of my own clearing, I was informed that many of us (myself included) are what are called “dreammasters. A dreammaster soul plays a part in other peoples’ dreams to provide lessons. So, if someone wanted to have an experience around betrayal, a dreammaster could be a part of the dream and play the part of the betrayer. In this case the dreammaster would have a strange dream that made no sense at all, because it had no meaning for him – it was all about the other person. Some dreams are lessons, some probably not so much but still working out problems.
One thing you could do is to write down whatever you do remember as soon as you wake up, in a dream journal, even if you have to keep a flashlight on your nightstand for when you wake in the middle of the night. I’ve been meaning to do this but I’m lazy.
Perhaps it has to do with how introspective and self-examining you are, and how well-connected you are with your subconscious and your Higher Self. As you know, part of the clearing work includes an intention for your conscious mind to become fully connected with the subconscious and Higher Self. I would expect that as one’s clearing progresses, however long that takes, the connection would become stronger and be more clearly understood.
Amazing the detail you can remember…I remember very little…snippets from one dream a week, maybe…how do you do that?