One day I was full of frustration, wanting a project to work out but not sure if it would, or when. And there was the money thing, the job thing…just a lot of things to worry about that I don’t seem to be able to do anything about. Intellectually I know my friend and confessor is right (as usual) – I need to allow rather than do, but it’s hard.
I have realized that I had thought that I was only claircognizant, but when you have full-blown sentences form in your head, that’s called clairaudience. I don’t hear strange voices, just my own inner voice. I’m told that’s the way it works.
Had breakfast in the shop that morning, then tried to meditate a little. I stare at a candle – today I also smudged with a little sage. I had been having trouble stopping my thoughts – this time I decided to let them flow…not resist, just allow. Maybe I would be given some guidance. I asked for help. I wasn’t feeling very well.
After a few moments, three thoughts came to the surface.
“come home from the war.”
“release it all.”
“be as a child.”
I held those thoughts for a few seconds, let them saturate me…and spontaneously began to weep. Out loud, as I hadn’t done since Pappy died 4-1/2 years ago. It was like a release of some sort. I thought it significant but I don’t really know what it was. I cried for a good 2 minutes or so. I said, “I do want to come home. Please help me,” as I wept. I was emotional in the extreme.
Once I’d settled down I took a deep breath or two and went to work on some things I wanted to get done..
I came in for lunch and while I had my sandwich I Googled the phrase “letting go”. I wanted to see some suggestions about exactly how one does that. I’ve done it before in small spurts, but my guides were telling me to let it all go. Sounds hard.
Well…with the Google search I was led right away to this article: The Art of Letting Go – A Taoist Approach. (http://www.positivehealth.com/article-view.php?articleid=1997).
Within the article is this quote:
“when we find ourselves in a useless battle, we merely walk off the battlefield.”
I needed no further proof that I am receiving guidance. I studied that article and put the information into my practice and my thinking. I do want to come home, from the war I have been making on society and on what I see as wrongfulness. I just want peace and to let it be.
This quote hit home and it has brought even more light to my life right now- somethings just don’t make any sense anymore so why stick around and see it through,just let it go, let it be and move on.